My Intentions: Binge Eating Disorder

I just want to start by saying that all these are my own thoughts and opinions based on my own experiences. I'm by no means a medical professional, nor do I have a clue what I'm talking about! 

Eating disorders are very personal things and I don't believe that 2 people experience them in the same way. Even if it looks like we do, triggers will differ, as will emotions before, during and after it.

Now the sticky part is out the way, and if you can't tell by the title, I 'suffer with' binge eating disorder.

I have done since I was roughly 16, I can't pin point a first binge or even the point tht I realised it was a problem. I will make a post about my story though. Just not this one. 

The last few weeks have been the worst I've ever experienced and after a pretty bad episode* I came to the stark realisation that I had to do something about this. After all, I'm the only one that can. I can either carry on letting it control me, or I can put a foot forward and deal with it.

Believe me, this is anything but the first time I've said "THAT'S IT". But this time I have every intention of getting rid of it. 

So, here goes.

I know it won't be an easy battle, it's been a huge part of my life for 7 years. And I can guarantee that there will be days where I go back to old ways. But that's just one day. Even if my compulsion makes me feel the need to end the day badly, the next morning is a new day.

I plan to document as much as I possibly can on here, for myself, and for those who are going through similar things. Because sometimes it's just nice to read that you're not alone. There's someone who has the t-shirt several times over.

I don't intend for this blog to be solely about BED though. To change such a big part of my life know I'll have to change many parts of my life.

I'm excited about this, to be making a change!!

TTFN,

Abi

*I tend to call them 'episodes' as I don't like talking about 'binges' after they've happened. I suppose it's part of the shame involved.