A Trip Over The Water

Just over a fortnight ago I was promising myself that I'd update this fairly regularly and for once in my life finish something, and here I am, just 2 posts in and slacking already!!

I do have good reason for it though, I've spent a long week end in Ireland visiting my in laws. It's been wonderful. Myself and Niamh flew over on Thursday morning and JP drove over on Friday night once he'd finished work. 

Thursday was the first time I've used public transport, alone with Niamh. We've hopped on the train to Edinburgh a couple of times but this was 3 trains and a flight! I was really worried about it but it went really well.  We were both lovely and calm and even arrived t the airport early which is UNHEARD of for me.

We had a wonderful time, visiting family, roaming hills, shopping and just generally doing sweet nothing. 

On the ED front, I've found it fairly tough. I don't know how people manage to cut it out cold turkey! I've been writing down as many of my emotions as I possibly can which I'm finding fairly helpful, although I'm seeing no recurring themes or emotional triggers. I find it virtually impossible to write things down when they're actually happening as I tend to go into a little 'trance' and forget about al most everything else.

Although I am finding my 'rational side' is starting to get a lot louder. I am managing to  now at least be cross at myself afterwards and not just depressed.

The other day I had a binge and stopped half way through which is not usually something I can manage as part of my compulsion is to see it out to the end.

We will get there,

TTFN

Abi